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physically or emotionally. a joker. maybe. a pacifier. at times. and... usually make the issues, people don't notice much.


  • Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas
  • Solitaire Mystery
  • Veronica Decides to Die
  • The Best Laid Plans


May 06, 2011

Sense, No Sensibility

It just makes sense, of no sensibility.
People curse. Men and women.  Bitterness and lies or worst.
Heartaches, headaches, for namesake, it’s all there.
Quite pain as it may be considered, but more of life’s joke taken seriously by most.
For this moment, again, take my time.
For this is a short message for the people who still try to take away the life i make.
No worries, i won’t mention names. They’d just kill themselves for asking if it was them or not.
I won’t tell. No worries, if i say it is because of them that i make mistakes often. I care not much about them but of the people around them, we all know that people judge quite fast for normal thinking, they won’t even bother to ask what and why and how, for they conclude things on their own.
I know this is quite puzzling, but still i dare you read thoroughly till you make your own story in line. I tell for i know much about your thinking, it’s something criminal, where sort of my expertise. (learned enough, just when my partner in crime have left me).
I dare myself to do things beyond my control. I conclude for something i am so hopeful to happen. Like in a minute, there goes my premonition. Do not think of any, just stare and walk away with your imagination, then surprise your mind. Think positive!

Beauty is Her Madness

“I was attacked in the forest while I was at rest. No worries, no doubts, no fear, nothing but myself and things that surrounds me, just those things that surrounds me. I dare not go out of my cave, for I know, there are eyes watching me. Every step creaks lot of creatures, waiting for their prey. Just for one night, back from the past, there’s this one creature, from the wild, that escaped and roared out the forest. I thought, it was beauty that reigned.  A beautiful creature from afar of nobody’s land. The beasts liked her, loved her and praised her, yet beauty wasn't enough and didn’t last to uncover the sharp fangs and claws of her madness. Beasts started to be mischievous. Untamed by the its beauty and madness, and then suddenly plagued out. Misfortune came to the forest just when creature was driven out. Now, she hits again. We’re now wondering why she came back. Then I thought, she’s just making a ding and a loud ring to take in again."

February 03, 2011

May Sasabihin Ako, Pero Huwag Mong Ipagsabe

magiisip ako ngayon ng bago.
sa panahon. sa mga lugar. sa mga pgakain.
sa mga tao. sa mga hayop. sa mga bagay-bagay at
sa sarili ko. ano bang bago pag nagsulat ako dito?
marami. dahil marami ang maaaring makabasa ng lahat ng sinusulat ko.
di nanaman mapakali ang mga daliri.
sabi' dapat pa'sulat nalang para di na mababasa ng iba, di pa mawawala.
sabi ko naman, ganun naman talaga dapat.
ano naman kung may makabasa,
ano naman kung mawala.
bago ba sa atin ang pagsusulat o pagkekwento sa ganitong paraan?
marahil sa iba (yung mga napagiwanan ba)
pero diba? bago magsulat o magkwento ang isang tao.
ano ba ang pakay niya? sabihin sayo ang kwento para itago mo sa sarili mo?
o ikwento para ikalat at malaman ng buong tao.
sa tingin ko, walang taong hindi, hindi sinasadyang magkwento sa isang tao.
halimbawa, may dalawa kang kaibigan. di mo alam na may samaan pala sila ng loob,
ng lumapit sayo ang isa at nagsabi ng saloobin. binalaan ka pang huwag sabihin sa isa mo pang kaibigan ang mga nasabi niya. ano ang gagawin mo? (marahil at malamang ay di mo nga sasabihin dba?)
pero isipin mo nalang, kung ayaw niyang ipasabi sa isa mo pang kaibigan ang saloobin niya,
sa simula pa lang ay di na dapat siya nagbitiw pa ng kung anu'anumang salita,
dahil balaan ka man niya o hindi, ay ganoon naman talaga nag pakay niya.
----ang sabihin sa kaibigan mo ang saloobin niya, dahil di niya kayang siya ang magsabi dito.

madalas sa mga kaibigan ko ang ganoong pag'uugali. at dahil sa nasa'isip ko ang ganoong "taktika",
maaring sabihin ko o di sabihin ang nasabing sekreto. minsan kasi, sinusukan ka lang din ng kaibigan mo ang katapatan mo sa kanya. na sa tingin ko ay ayos lang naman at walang malisya.

ikaw? di mo ba naisip na ginagamit ka lang niya para magbati sila?

November 07, 2010

Do's and Don'ts

do's and dont's
that i always think of
i do like this
but i don't have it
i do want this
but i don't do it
i don't do it
but i just did it,
so unclear. yet, always think of it
i want to do this
but i don't do it
i want to sketch it
but my hands are laid
i want to paint it
but the colors, too dull
i know i want it
but just can't make it HELP ME GOD (sigh)

August 26, 2010


What else can I say about this lady in disguise. 
I guess she was mesmerized
by the so-called love so sweet and spice.
In every thing I do, she acts it from the clues
In every word that I say, she utters like I'm no play

For what is the beauty that she has for when she shows what she had from the past.
Heartaches. Lies. Burning pains she might have come from far.
Please stop the drama, little stinky , you are now empty in his heart.

I pity those who say, nothing changes the first deep heartbreak
then I would rather say, nothing stops me, till you, that I break?

From you I've known a lot that people change but not you, Bitter
peanut butter paste, no such thing you'd make it better.

A lot like love. A lot like hate.
How can people swear, "I will wait"
A lot like you, A lot like faith
Cut those tangles, there's too much to wait.

I am no classy, as you are so bossy
no such thing as thinkerbelly,
Well, pardon me for I am late,
in saying these words, I hope you are with grate.

June 27, 2010


When she stares at your mouth

Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb-arse because she thinks shes

stronger than you

Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough

Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet

Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you

Give her your attention

When she pulls away

Pull her back

When you see her at her worst

Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying

Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking

Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared

Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie

Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you

Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time

reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt

Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you

she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands

Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;

bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret

keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes

don't look away until she does

When she says it's over

she still wants you to be hers

When she re posts this bulletin

she wants you to read it

When she talks to you

listen!!and don't just sit there

When she gives you a note

keep it forever and never let it go

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's OK don't believe it

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:

"Whose arse am i kicking baby?"


April 12, 2010

The Unhealthy Love

               "Calm down. Relax. Take it easy. Everything's going to be fine."

                These words always lingers on me whenever the tension between us is going beyond the limits. I hate it when he speaks like he is a total loser than I am. And whenever he sees himself as a nobody in terms of my priorities. I hate it when he speaks ill about my friends, whom he never met yet. That he thinks they are nothing as compared to him. He always thinks I'll give in to them more often than him, that I'll always go with them so easily whenever they ask me to, that I'd hang out with them without his own consent, that I will always and ever choose them over him.

               I hate it when he reacts on my best-friends' messages to me, and that, as if I am not allowed to befriend my long time friends and just focus on him, Forever on him, him and him alone! I hate it when his voice goes loud that as if I am not a lady to be respected and no right to be treated well, that as if I don't deserve a good attention over things he used to do and me, obliged to change my ways I was used to. I hate it when I do some stuffs that I thought would be OK, without his consent, that I still have to ask for his permission for some stuffs like Photoshop, Facebook, and Messenger. The hell these things are made for fun and I don't see any decree that girlfriends aren't allowed to spend time with these. Are these things against the law for someone in a relationship?

                I know its been a while that I suffered a lot from him, since there was that lady who tried to take him on and him letting it be, that as if everything would just be so fine and nobody would be hurt. that whenever I'll be knowing about it, I'd just let him go and let them live happily ever after. hell no!

                  I know I am not a perfect partner and I can't give all the things he wanted me to do. But I am sure that I am doing all my responsibilities as his partner and I am way far, so far from her pasts. Having him for this long is an achievement, but I take it more as a realization. Yet, sometimes, I still wonder... if things would be just like this and that. Would it work?

                Is it enough to just love a person unconditionally, even if you know that someday, all his bad deeds from past might come back and go after him? I'm coming to the point that I might cut the tie between us, I might have enough and release him, let go of his own way. Cause I'm tarting to fade, give me more reason to hold on. For this is not the real thing I wanna have. It's unhealthy love!

November 16, 2009

Take Five and Calm Down

"Take five and calm down. Jealousy is never a good way to deal with a problem."
         At the moment, I have an awful lot to share. Even if I don't, the look on my face says it all. So why hold it back? Let everyone know what's on my mind? Nah-uh. I'm not good at holding my tongue anyway, especially when I feel a good air-clearing session is the best solution. Just that, I really don't "intentionally" try to hurt anyone's feelings. Let us be generous with the kindness and skimp on the sarcasm. Right?